I Am The Peoples' Ranger, and This Is My Story

so yeah, i dunno how many people use this nemore, but yeah this is kinda interesting

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 21:14:11 GMT

so hanging out with some people from work the other day. so we're all just chillen at cici's eating some pizza and sticky buns, in comes this girl that works with me but i dont know her. neways so she looks a little chubby, but nope, i later find out shes pregnent. so as the night goes on she leaves, and i voice how i find it hard to believe how many people are younger than me and have kids or are going to have a kid. so i say something along the lines of, wow that sucks, i wonder how her parents are about this. the answer i receive. "they are very supportive of her, after all she made it out of highschool before she got pregnent." i was just awe struck by that answer. what the fuck kinda of white trash place is this (where i work at, not where i live). i thought that sorta thing was rare and we made fun of those unfortunate few that made the mistake. its crazy how fucking different life is in different places. something else i find humorous is that i make almost $11 now, and my boss only makes $10.50.

Crave has been Conquered

Thu, 04 May 2006 09:49:36 GMT

me and ruebes his up the castle and it only took us about an hour to polish off a crave case. needless to say, it was sweet.

so then we came back to my house to move the piano back and forth and there a fucking huge ass fuzzy bumble bee hanging out on the window sill. i didnt see this however until i leaned on the window and got stung in the ass. how it missed my wallet i dunno, but none the less, my ass is swollen. rather humerous though

on top of that my sinuses are acting up, so i sleep for like 2-3 hours at a time until i can't breathe. so i slept on and off pretty much after the carpet guys left until about 4am, because of the history paper i forgot about. either way its 530, and the pistons are playing. so im like, why are they playing at 3am, then i realized it was just a replay. 3 days of classes left, biggest part that sucks, all my exams are on the same day.

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 05:29:06 GMT

losers always whine about their best, winners go home and fuck the prom queen

Fuck this game, It's 4 in the morning grandma, you win

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 08:56:37 GMT

today was a pretty good day, other than the parents constantly prying at one another. but im staying out of it as much as i can, i can't pick sides and im not gonna "spy" on one for the other. least to say, its interesting to see the co-existance among one another, they act more like they're roommates than married.

rather humerous though, my dad thought i was 21 so he ordered me an oil can at outback. rather humerous.

got some different yet good news today as well, didnt really expect it, but now that i know about it, i can see how everything played up to it. its feels good to be happy for other people

got a really strange phone call from greg, something along the lines of this:
"hey man, happy birthday, guess what?"
(thanks dude, whats up)
"i dont have aids"
(umm... what?!)
"i dont have aids"
(aids?)
"yeah dude, i was at the doctors office and they asked if ive ever been tested for hiv, and that i should do it, so they gave me a free test, and i dont have aids"
(o..k.. so you're going around telling everyone you dont have aids)
"yep"
(sweet, well thats good news, haha)

i found out that i have 4000 frequent flier miles that expire 4.22.06, so i look into it seeing if i can take a trip. apparently you have to have a balance over 20,000 miles in order to get a free flight. wt-fucking-f

leave for florida memorial weekend, will be back mid august for mens week 06. so if anyone wants to road trip on the last weekend in may 26-29th (memorial day on monday), let me know, and oyu can help me unpack. haha, only if you want, but if you wanna come get some sun, leave me a message

guess thats all for now, probably update when something significant happens, thanks to everyone who called and what-not today.

a real update

Sat, 25 Feb 2006 09:47:40 GMT

since i dont really seem to actually update this, since im feeling good, ill do it now.

cardinal rule: dont fuck with people that handle your food. good movie when i saw it in theaters, good movie when i saw it at james house

the end of fast and the furious is actually vin deisil driving on a beach in mexico, i did not know this until last night.

i now have health insurance, its not blue cross/blue shield, but hey at least its something.

also i have no idea why i was getting upset over little things like that i thought this girl liked me, but she didnt act it, but she says she does, you know kinda rediculous stuff, but something happened today, and everything seems to be at piece. i guess she decided that she is going to look out for number one (herself), and actually it's a good idea, and i think im gonna follow by example. its still cool though because she is one of those people that are easy to talk to and can relate. i guess it was just me investing too much emotion into a person that doesnt want all the attention. either way, feels like a weight has been lifted.

dont know why i bother too much with it, after all china & i derived that women are the root of evil (haha).

speaking of which, i need to go and start hanging out with my friends more often, i havent seen quite a bit of people for quite awhile.

ive decided that im going to go to florida either the end of may, or june, wanna try to see if i can get a few to a bunch of people to go on a lil road trip at the end of the semester.

school is school, work is work, nothing new in that dept.

my life is pretty boring, but you know im actually starting to appreciate that i dont have to worry about so many things.

i lost to a girl in a game of bowling last night/this morning. decided to retire.

going bowling again tonite. came out of retirement. drunk bowling is better than sober bowling.

started working out again, not quite at my goal of waking up at 6-8 am everyday and going to the gym, but hey, what can you do.

paintball and airsoft are awesome again, not quite poker night, but still fun as hell.

other than that, not much i can really think of right now, so i guess im gonna go to bed so that i can wake up for work amorrow.

piece,
ranger

decisions

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 17:55:01 GMT

after talking with my dad for a bit last night, i've made up my mind on a few things.

every so often you just have to do something wild

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 21:35:59 GMT

last nite was a good nite. now im going back to bed.

fuck your couch

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 19:34:51 GMT

i got a new 27" hdtv, its awesome. however in the process of getting this tv, when my buddy and i were carrying it up the stairs, i think he tripped over a step, but anyways the tv came down on my foot. so i ended up goin to the clinic hospital thingy. anyways all grossness aside, i'm off work for a week because im not soppose to put alot of pressure on it for an given amount of time. so if you want drop me a line, or come on by (call first).

so many options... so many fucking options

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 07:40:10 GMT

of course im not sleeping, i rarely do now-a-days. it seems that my life is full of so many fucking choices. there are so many open ends, and i have no way of dealing with them, or rather, the lack of comprehension in order to make a proper decision. i always have thought of all these options as problems, but i was talking to coco about an hour ago, and he told me that it was beautiful. here i am thinking he's nuts, but then i got to thinking, and he's kinda right about it. god gave me balls (ironic that i use this phrase, since religion and faith has been really bothering me lately, but thats a differnet story for a different day) and i gotta use them and just make a fucking choice. if its wrong, then oh well, make another choice and go deeper. anyways, i cant just sit around and let life fucking just go past me and wait for shit to happen. life is learned by making mistakes, ive always been so concerned about not making bad decisions, that i havent made any decisions at all.

this is just bothering me, so i gotta put it in here and hope for feedback (by anyone with advice). anyways ive been seeing, for lack of a better word, this girl for a little bit, and we say that we like each other, but sometimes im just kinda confused. this is probably just me being insecure, and/or rediculous. but anyways, she doesnt seem to return my calls, for example, we'll hang out for a few days straight, and then i wont hear from her for like a week, and then a few days, and repeat. i pretty much call her once or twice a day, and sometimes she calls, sometimes she doesnt. i just really dont know where its going, and thats whats getting to me. its like mentally i commited to a relationship that doesnt exist, and im just kinda hanging out waiting to see if she'll come by and join me. i mean if we were going out, i wouldnt fret about something like this because i have that security of knowing that she is there (although i would like to hear from her quite often), but because we arent together, but psychologically it feels like we are, its turning my mind into knots. i dont know if i should just kinda chill, and wait for her to call me, or if i should just keep going the way i am. see there we go with more decisions, though be it, self-created, most problems are self-created anyways (well for me it seems). once again, input would be helpful. i think im going insane

been hanging out with sir reubleman lately, and also been thinking about the military route. i dont know why, it just seems like its a good idea for some reason. for example...
- my life is going nowhere as of yet
- dogtags are cool
- i am inane (in other words, i dont have a conscience)
- i do what im told
- i like pain/fear
- i dont have a realistic view on life/death (conceptually, and physically)
- i dont have a realistic view on war (i know, but i dont understand)
- my family is rather distant (conceptually)
- no more target
- my life is boring/no reason not to
not that its going to actually happen, in fact it most likely will not, but none-the-less its gone back and forth through my head (among other things).

then comes florida, i dont even know where to get started with this one. do i go, do i not go. if i go should i do this, or not do this. if i dont go should i do that. and so on and so forth, i would give actual examples but really my minds starting to exhaust itself. hopefully ill be able to get more than a couple hours of sleep before work tomorrow, but doubtful.

anyways, leave something if you have input. or even if its nothing, put it down. im interested to see what you guys think of this.

oh yeah, go steelers

the update (for real this time) GOAL!!!!!

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 10:51:40 GMT

christmas break was overall pretty damn good. unfortunately i wasnt able to see everyone i wanted to as much as i wanted to, but overall not to shabby.

new years was fucking awesome. unfortunately i was out partied by mr manjella, so i went over there for the actual new year, and then afterwards i felt guilty so i stopped by james jc's to cap it off. both were excellent.

first annual hangover bowl was sweet. we kinda made a new format for how the game should be played, and it definately was what was needed to kick start the new year.

i pretty much disappeared for a week due to working overnight sunday thru friday.

then friday night... CANADIA!!! (happy birthday to heather) canadia was freakin sweet. only lost like $100 at the casino... only. haha. then went bar and club hopping, and ended up at cheetahs. where i had the emcee announce heathers birthday over the loud speaker, and i bought her a body shot (off a stripper, not me). me, don and flipp definately peer-pressured heather into smoking a cuban, and ended up buying her one that she smoked herself (for the most part). yay for corruption. then back at the hotel room we watched this "porn" where it had the story of the hockey player... pretty much it was long and drawn out (like most pornos with a plot), and she takes her shirt of (no boobs, pov is her back) then all of a sudden she throws her arms up and shouts "Goal!". and end movie... what the fuck, a porno with no porn, wt-fucking-f. so then we went down to the casino to try to win some money, but didnt work out the way we planned. so we just went back to the room and bought a terriblely funny $15 porno. during which matt (while refering himself in the third person) called the play-by-play while he was sleeping/trying to go to sleep/laying down (in other words not watching the tv.)

came home saturday, slept till about 9ish. got some excellent pizza from this amazingly adorable girl that works at little ceasers. then went over to james and j.c's for the night. james's brother is kick ass. watched the most intense game of madden ever. then worked today from 5am to 2pm, and after that... went to the redwings game with my parents and j.c. although we ended up losing (its the curse of the black guy, every sporting event we go to we lose ,coincidense? i think not), the game was still sweet as hell. especially when its the third row at center ice.

randomly woke up at 530am, thought my clock said 630 so i was like, hey not to bad, but nope, only 530, even when im completely dead and havent gotten more than like 5 hours of sleep over 3 nights, i still cannot sleep for 8 hours.

overall, the break was awesome, school starts thursday, schedule is pretty tight, and history with kady should be a blast.

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 17:45:32 GMT

update coming, but first much sleep is needed

*update on the update* the update is still coming but ill be at james and jcs house tonite, and i dunno if they have the internet yet. so ill post it sometime in the next little bit, but as a sneak preview, i got heather a body shot.

Resolving New Years!!!

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 20:08:47 GMT

since i have no idea what to do for a new years resolution. i'm looking to you guys to tell me one (or several) thing(s) about me that you would change. hopefully i can get some ideas and start bein a better person in the new year. thanks.

p.s. dont hold back, lemme have it

wheres my night light?

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 03:48:48 GMT

past couple days have been pretty event filled.
i fit a 10 ft christmas tree in my car.
my sister came home from south carolina.
greg came home from new york.
my power steering pump blew up (it really did, theres fluid everywhere), so its alot of fun driving.
went snowboarding this morning. gotta say its a lot harder than i thought it would be, and it was definately a full body workout. awesome shit, im definately going alot more.
tradish tomorrow in the am before work, gotta say its gonna be fuckin glorious.

other than that not to much goin on. not sure if im gonna be online often, so gimme a call if you wanna hang out.

Stolen from a Maverik Renegade

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 09:38:13 GMT

1) Was 2005 a good year for you? not to shabby, have had better
2) What was your favorite moment of the year? Goin to New York/Grand Marais
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? alot of bad news in the family
4) Where were you when 2005 began? emersons basement
5) Who were you with? the gang
6) Where will you be when 2005 ends? probably at someones house
7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends? my friends
8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005? didnt really make one
9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006? not yet
10) Did you fall in love in 2005? yes
11) If yes, with who? megan mason
12) If yes, do they know? yes, but i dont know if they know the extent
13) Did you kiss anyone? yepppp
14) Do you regret it? Never regret
15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005? unfortunately
16) Did you make any new friends in 2005? yeah a few here and there
17) Who are your favorite new friends? ak, james and fields
18) What was your favorite month of 2005? febuary (new york, megan, friends, no worries about life)
19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005? oh canada
20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005? florida, south carolina, north carolina, new york
21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005? yes
22) Did you miss anybody in the past year? of course
23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005? wedding crashers/mr and mrs smith/40 yr old virgin (take your pick)
24) What was your favorite song from 2005? outkast - take off your cool
25) What was your favorite record from 2005? tenacious d
26) How many concerts did you see in 2005? nope
27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005? n/a
28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005? well ummm... maybe, depends on what you call alot
29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005? nope
31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year? yeah a few things
33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005? umm... yeah i dont know that
34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005? probably
35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005? most definately
36) How much money did you spend in 2005? alot, but not to bad, im 3 grand on top as of right now
37) What was your proudest moment of 2005? when i figured out what to do with the rest of my life
38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005? probably telling everyone i was moving, then getting screwed over and not
39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005? mid jan - mid april
40) What are your plans for 2006? school, life, saving money, and hopefully florida

other than that, danielle is home for a week and a half. greg will be home in a few days (the mta went on strike wtf), frank's home, and im fucking going snowboarding tomorrow, well thursday (which is technically tomorrow)

i know ive said it once before and ill say it again, tomorrow i start in a new direction

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 07:07:40 GMT

the past few weeks have turned out to be rather interesting. ive been hanging out with one of my ex-girlfriends quite frequently. which i consider to be a plus. shes been rather upset lately, and i'm hoping that im helping her out. other than that, all my christmas stuff is done, and my school schedule kicks ass. tuesdays and thursdays from 10 - 4. awesome. everyone is pretty much home for the holidays, so it'll be good to see everyone again. and i gotta say i'm so glad to have friends like kady because they help put me in perspective. ive been beating myself up mentally, and have been depressed for some rather stupid reasons. i can't complain, and altough sometimes i still do, its good to have those few people that are always there.

still can't sleep, and the giant Q no longer works on me. just random stuff has me stressed out; work, relationships, my inability to contain/control my rather unstable, fluxuant emotions. not to mention that the fact that i'm just kinda stuck in limbo is kinda gay. its like my life is put on hold, and i hate being put on hold. but then again, this is the perfect chance to start making those changes in my life.

king's on, so socom shall ensue, goodnight all

how i long to be in florida

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 00:22:03 GMT

so my parents are in florida this week checking up on the finalization of the house, and they call me today to tell me that its 80 degrees and they were walking on the beach... bastards. haha

Turkey Bowl '05

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 02:31:59 GMT

so, none of us realized that it was below zero this morning, but we still went out and played anyways. early on in the game i chased down g ross and got personally aquainted with the ice. overall it was a good game. i set the record for the most passes that hit the receiver in the hands and were not caught. anyways is was good to see everyone all together again, and even though we couldnt talk after our faces went numb, in the end it was worth it.

final score
gregs team - 8
brad's team - 6.

cleaned up most of the blood, and actually the picture looks pretty good, compared to what it looks like in person

hahahaha

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 04:33:47 GMT

i am going to laugh at all those dumb asses waiting in line for an xbox 360. especially when i hand out the last ticket.

stolen from some awesome girls that i know

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 06:21:08 GMT

You are a steroid. You're a special kind of
inter-nuclear hormone and have direct,
immediate effects on the near future; you are
pumped up, ready to go, and excite the people
around you into action. You can also cause
cancer.

Which Biological Molecule Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Have you ever..
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1. Fallen for your neighbor? um.. no, all my neighbors were guys
2. Made out with just a friend? yep
3. Been rejected? yes
4. Been in love? at the time, but my interpretation of love has changed since then
5. Used someone? yes
6. Been used? probably
7. Been Kissed? yes
8. Done something you regret? nope
9. Cried just to get out of trouble? i wish i had that power

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Who was the last person...
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10. You talked to? big sexy and paul
11. You hugged? megan
12. You instant messaged? mr 47
13. You Missed? not sure, its confusing
15. You yelled at? can't remember
16. You laughed with? big sexy and paul
17. Who broke your heart? hasnt been broken
18. Who told you they loved you? my mom
19. You kissed? shelby
=========================
Have you / Do you / Are you...
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20. Have a Birthmark? several
21. Have any piercing? nope
22. Have a 6 pack? it comes and goes, um trying to get it back to permenent
23. Own your own house? nope, apartment soon :-)
24. Own a nice car? fuck yeah, the ford enema
25. Speak any languages? english
26. Cook your own Dinner? i can, if need be
27. color your hair? nope
28. Have green eyes? hazel blue/green (they change with the seasons)
29. Stolen anything? yep
30. Smoked? cigars
31. Taken drugs? haha. yep
32. Obsessive? depends on what it is
35. Panic? nope
36. Anxiety? nope
37. Depressed? sometimes
38. Control Freak? sometimes
39. Obsessed with hate? no
40. Have a tattoo? no
======================
Question..
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41. If you could be anywhere, where would it be? north or south carolina
42. Can you do anything freakish with your body? not that i know
43. what feature do you find most attractive on boys/girls? eyes/smile
44. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? depending on what time of the month it was. haha, just kidding, yeah i would if she was better than the other choice
45. Would you marry for money? probably, money = sexy
46. Have you had braces? nope
47. Do you wear lip gloss? nope
48. Do you sing in the shower? sometimes
50. Could you live without a computer? yep, it just makes certain things easier
51. Do you use AOL, MSN, Yahoo? AOL
52. If so, how many people are on your list? about 60 people that i keep in touch with
53. If you could live in any past, where would it be? the 80's i soppose, but i like the present
56. What is your favorite fruit? peaches
57. Do you eat wheat bread or white? both
58. What is your favorite place to visit? gran marais
59. Fave DVD? back to the future
60. Do you kiss on the first date? depends
61. Are you photogenic? no, i am not a lamp
62. Do you dream in color or black and white? both
63. What are you wearing right now? pajama pants
64. Do you eat a lot of fruit? if its around
65. Do you have dimples? yep
66. Do you remember being born? haha, i cant even remember high school
67. Why do you take surveys? fun, time consuming
68. Do you drink alcohol? yep
69. Did you like high school? it was cool
70. What is the best accent? english/british, italian
71. Who do you want to kiss? jessica alba is hott as hell
72. Do you like sunsets? yes
73. Do you want to live to be 100? not really
74. If not, why? im agreeing with ruebes, quality of life not quantity
75. Do you or have you played with a ouija board? nope
76. Are you loyal? absolutly, some more than others
77. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? yes
80. Do you think you can draw well? it depends
81. At what age did you find out that Santa Clause wasn't real? wait, hes not real?
82. How many pairs of shoes do you have in your closet? 5
84. Do you write poetry? nope
86. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides? all
87. Do you like Cats/Dogs? more dogs, but cats are ok
88. Do you lick stamps? yepp
89. Do you use an electric can opener? i have
90. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon? no but i want to
91. Like your name? yeah
92. Were you named after anyone? my moms dad
93. Do you wish on stars? shooting stars
94. Which finger is your favorite? the fuck you finger
95. When did you last cry? the day i found out about my cousin
97. Who do you admire? people who know that they have little chance to live, yet they never give up hope
98. What is the number 1 priority in your life? to live for somebody else
99. How many kids do you want? 2 or 3
100. Any bad habits? a few, but who doesnt

bam! lj history

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 01:18:41 GMT

alrighty, i just want everybody to know that i reached 60 comments on that one entry

good news!!!!

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 09:07:56 GMT

good news from the hospital! my cousin is coming home for the entire weekend!
he's been kicking ass and taking names, hes gone from using a walker, to crutches, and now he's only using a cane!
the three spots on his lung have shrunken considerably, and the portion in his pelvis has also showed signs of shrinking. he starts his last session of aggressive chemo on monday., and in a few more weeks he will have surgury to remove the mass in his pelvic bone. once again i want to thank you guys for your prayers, they definately are helping keep his spirits up. his chance of survival has gone up almost 20% since his first diagnosis. thanks again, and keep em coming, he really does look forward to hearing them from me when i go to visit.

here are some pictures of his progress

that escalated quickly, i mean that really got out of hand

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 05:44:35 GMT

that was definately the classic snowball into an avalanche right there. i cant believe so many people, majority of which i dont even know, would actually take the time out to try to write back a witty reply (while trying not to be a pussy like me for typing something on the internet, whoa, irony). first off i can't believe people take this shit seriously. also, why would my opinion matter to anyone that thinks im an ass-ramming homosexual? personally i'm all for love (as long as its real), and if those individuals believe they are in love, then why the fuck would they get so pissed off about something i wrote in an online journal where i discuss stupid things that go through my head. plus i dunno why all these guys wanted to give me their number, im not actually gay. and although it did prove to be rather entertaining, it definately escalated like crazy, people are leaving me death threats and i'm entering the darkest days of my life or some shit like that. kady may be correct, it kinda does sound like a cult. i do kinda feel bad about the kid who was very self-conscience, i've been there before and i know that it sucks. all in all, it was rather entertaining, check it out, its the previous entry with the 25 or so comments.

i finally found out why women are superior to men.

and i may be going up to western for central western weekend.

also, heard someting good from the hospital today, ill update later

time to bag me some terrorists. hooahh!

.

if theres ever a zombie outbreak, stick with me

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 21:08:34 GMT

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Fri, 04 Nov 2005 20:59:43 GMT

you know how i thought that everything was gonna be ok? well i guess i was wrong. everything will be ok in the long run, but right now, things are definately far from ok.

just a thought

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 20:46:46 GMT

have you ever had one of those ideas that seemed good at first, then after you masterbated it didnt sound like such a good idea anymore?